Everybody's just a stranger, but that's the danger in going my own way...

Hello blogland. I apologize for the long wait. I've just been quite a busy boy. I'll spare you all of the gory details though. Today is day 30. Which means that I only have one more day of vegetarianism. Wow. I am, however, having quite a tussle with myself as to whether or not I will stick with it. Who knows...I guess we'll find out tomorrow. I'll be sure to let you know though.
I also wanted to let you all know of something that I realized about myself the other day. It is a warning of sorts. I was talking to a couple of my good friends the other day, and the topic of relationships came up. Now, when I say 'relationships', I actually mean 'people whom you are romantically connected with'. Because I have relationships with lots of people. But I am nowhere near interested in most of them. In fact, I would that life is entirely defined by relationship. One relationship with Christ that influences all the others. But that's another discussion.
At some point in this conversation, I lamented the fact that I am probably going to be single for the rest of my life. I said this rather casually and in a borderline sarcastic manner, because I don't actually plan on this. But one of my friends said something that I've been chewing on all weekend. It was along these lines: "Well it's because you're just kind of the independent type".
I've realized that this is true. And that i don't like it. It's not only true in the 'relationship' context, but in all of my relationships as well. It feels like I don't pursue people the way that Christ did. I only let people in if they show interest in me. This is disturbing to me. Well, I'm off to work. Maybe more later. Some lyrics or something less depressing....